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Language

I have been thinking a lot about the words we use. And writing on this can barely touch the surface so these are just a few thoughts about a much bigger picture. We can never get it right with language. It is so complex and complicated and we can never really know the meaning ofContinue reading “Language”

Fraud

Sometimes I wonder what I am doing with my life and what I would like to do with it. The truth is, I don’t really know. I think I will always struggle to find a job that I will be happy in. There is always too much anxiety regarding whether I can ever be goodContinue reading “Fraud”

Friendships and Loneliness

I find it really difficult to describe friendships at the moment. I find friendships really difficult. I am not sure if it is something that would have always been this way, or whether I would have had a very different life and had friends that hung around had I not had all the trauma inContinue reading “Friendships and Loneliness”

It’s been almost a year

It’s been almost a year since my last post. I always have all these great ideas and thoughts of being able to write, and then I never sit down and manage to do it. There are probably many reasons for this, but the biggest is almost certainly that I do not want to spend timeContinue reading “It’s been almost a year”

The five love languages

The five love languages can be really interesting to look at when we start to struggle. We can really start to think about which of the languages we like to give and which we like to receive. It’s more than liking to receive though, it’s about meeting a much deeper need, and when it’s missingContinue reading “The five love languages”

Let’s All Meet Up

A counselling course can bring you together with your course mates in a way that perhaps other courses don’t. You tend to end up opening up more than you probably would usually. You talk about deep stuff because other people “get it”. More is allowed perhaps, than in other circumstances. It can feel like aContinue reading “Let’s All Meet Up”

Medication and Feelings

I have been on and off anti-depressants for 18 years. I am a little bit of a nightmare with medication and I don’t deny that. I am terrible at remembering to take it, even though I was taking it regularly for a long time. I constantly decide I have had enough of taking it amdContinue reading “Medication and Feelings”

Qualifying

It’s funny how when you qualify it’s like something should change but it really doesn’t seem to. I have now been qualified for a couple of months. I haven’t really allowed myself to celebrate and I’m not sure it feels real. Still. I still think that someone is going to tell me that an assignmentContinue reading “Qualifying”

Into the depths

There is something that so many people find so scary about suicide. And I think a lot of the time it is lack of control, lack of being able to help, the distress of knowing another is in that much distress that they see death as the only answer. The fact that we would likeContinue reading “Into the depths”

Time, essays, lockdown, loneliness, illness, exhaustion

It is probably a mistake to think that starting a blog in the second year of a post-graduate diploma was a good idea. That I would somehow have time to write for fun in the middle of the stress and pressure of having to write essays and survive everything else that was going on inContinue reading “Time, essays, lockdown, loneliness, illness, exhaustion”